Thoughts in point form.

- It's actually snowingggg.....so beautiful, so dirty at the same time, so slippery, so icy, so cold, so white :D - I love white.

- I want a 2"inch christmas tree and stockings but no room for it. smucks!

- I should learn how to snowboard

- I need to do well in school but no drive cuz I'm ought to fail eventually anyhow.

- I need/want a job, but I guess I dont want it enough because I'm not doing anything about it >.<

- some more flowers in adition to those purple carnations would be nice

- What is there to do these days?

- I want those Rocks and republics but that can wait. and so can my vest or new sweaters...--> So can a lot of things.

- need to start on essay this weekend.

- thinking slightly too much...so bye

- oh wait....I would like to travel. Anywhere. near or far.

- I should learn how to be a better person. but how? so confusing.

Done now.

I'm back from Vietnam now....never home, never on this. Ciao!

I'm confused - - frustrated - - lost - - suffocating - - afraid - - puzzled - - missing it and needing it (vital) - - gosh this is killing me. Gotta get back on track, can't be running wild all the time.

and NO, it's not about my love life. I think I've spent just about enough time or too much perhaps, worrying about that crap all my life. Sounds like it eh? haha.

Everytime that i do you reminded not to, that I shouldn't and that you dont care whether I do or not. I think I've finally got the point and realize what I should and should not do.

I'm so grateful for you being here, so understanding, for putting up with everything and make it seem like it's nothing at all. I dont know how you do it but this is my thank you to you. I'm absolutely lucky! I'm more than a handful to carry, believe I know but the fact that you haven't changed your ways towards me at all through times means....just heavenly a lot! :)

It's about time that I know what I've got....